This blog serves to provide a few things for anyone that may come across it. It's a way for me to share my experiences in the gay community ever since coming out at age 19. It's also an outlet I'll have to show my progress as I begin to start working out again after a very long hiatus. I'm hoping that with the support of my loving boyfriend and all my followers I can get to looking the way I have wanted to my whole life. Your compliments are always appreciated and I'll try my best to answer any questions you guys have. Big hugs and tugs!

 

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Just before my nap, hehe

My wonderful and extremely sexy bear!!! Don’t you just wanna cuddle the hell outta him? Well get in line lol

tdubpic:

Just before my nap, hehe

My wonderful and extremely sexy bear!!! Don’t you just wanna cuddle the hell outta him? Well get in line lol

Got a couple Nasty Pig things hehe. The underwear feel amazing!!!

Got a couple Nasty Pig things hehe. The underwear feel amazing!!!

Little peek at my butt hehe. Hugs and tugs!

Little peek at my butt hehe. Hugs and tugs!

A Cub’s Love of Leather (Part 1)

My interest in leather and bdsm began 2 years ago when I ended my 2 and a half year relationship with my ex (still great friends though! ). We had been monogamous and do for the first time since I came out I was able to play the field.
I had always thought about role playing and kinky scenarios but I knew of only one friend in Madison who could potentially help me see them through. I contacted him and arrangements were made. I came over with my jock on under my clothes, talked for a while with him and ultimately told him he had free reign to try anything on me he felt I’d be comfortable with. I knew him since I met my ex, so I trusted him.
Almost 5 hours later I can only suffice to say that my mind had been blown. Collar, sling, e stim, ass play, nipple clamps, ice, and a lot of daddy/son talk were just a few things that I experienced that day. I was instantly hooked and wanted only for my limits to be pushed, mentally and physically.

Sorry for the late selfie!  Enjoy! I’ll hopefully be getting a bit beefier :D

Sorry for the late selfie! Enjoy! I’ll hopefully be getting a bit beefier :D

Out of the cub’s closet (part 3)

Into early August I continued chatting with people and felt my self esteem slowly rebuilding itself.  It was comforting to see all these guys that had the same sexual orientation I did.  I had this misconception in my head that our population was small and very secluded, but I couldn’t have been more wrong.

I started talking with a guy from Stoughton, about 15 minutes away from where I live, and it was such an odd feeling I had.  I thought to myself, “here’s this guy who is just like me and he’s only 15 minutes away.” I could see him right now if I wanted to.  The thought of meeting him, however, scared me to death.  I pictured the whole horror movie scene where he locks the door and starts laughing maniacally.  It took me a few weeks more of chatting with him to assure myself he wasn’t a pyschopath, but I did eventually meet and talk with him.  I also had my first sexual experience that day as well.  I won’t go into detail, but I left feeling horrible, yet somehow enlightened in a sense. I called one of my best friends that I met on World of Warcraft to tell him.  

He was actually the first person I ever came out to, only a few weeks before meeting with the guy in Stoughton. I had heard rumors that he was going to quit wow, which saddened me immensely, so I asked if I could talk with him in a separate ventrilo channel on headset.  I don’t know that I have ever experienced such a large feeling of relief in my life other than that moment.  I honestly can’t even describe the emotions.  It just felt amazing that someone else I trusted knew, and still thought the world of me. 

I was asked a couple months back how I got into leather and bdsm. Here’s a pic a friend of mind took at bear pride last year. Thought it would set the mood for the discussion ;)

I was asked a couple months back how I got into leather and bdsm. Here’s a pic a friend of mind took at bear pride last year. Thought it would set the mood for the discussion ;)

Out of the cub’s closet (part 2)

One day in early July I decided to make a profile on Biggercity.com. Some of you may be familiar with this chub chaser community website.  When I was younger I had used it for, well, inspiration, but as I began accepting my sexuality I thought it might be nice to join a site where I could talk to others.

I took my first real selfie ever (wish I could find the original photo!) and made my profile. Wolfman88.  What came next was something I honestly never fathomed would happen.  Within the next few weeks I was getting tons of compliments from members in all sorts of locations around the world. I had never ever gotten any sort of positive attention like that in my entire life.  I can’t really explain how good it felt to have someone say I was hot or cute or any number of nice things.  I had grown so accustomed to being unnoticed that it took a while for me to even register what was going on.  All I can say is that it was an incredibly good feeling. 

I wanted to let all you guys know that my wonderful bear has also started his own tumblr page! Tdubpic.tumblr.com. Be sure to check it out :D To help cope with the distance of our relationship and with some inspiration from a great friend I met at fur flee we are both taking the steps necessary to better our lives for our future. Should be fun right?

I wanted to let all you guys know that my wonderful bear has also started his own tumblr page! Tdubpic.tumblr.com. Be sure to check it out :D To help cope with the distance of our relationship and with some inspiration from a great friend I met at fur flee we are both taking the steps necessary to better our lives for our future. Should be fun right?